getting out of nerve

i hope it's just a small problem...
i hope that it can go away easily
but it's when to my future...
i think i cannot be silent anymore..
a lot of stress coming rite up
feeling nauseous of eveything
even a small thing can be a major deal
where's the justice???



 

lost..lost..lost...idea

new year...
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 new entry
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new life
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different environment
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new chapter begin.
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degree???
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say bye bye
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officially GRAD
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LOOKING FOR A JOB CURRENTLY
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dun know what to write.
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i had no idea at all
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but In syaa Allah.
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i will write again  :)))

grown up

it's been a long time i left school
feeling dread and relief cuz escaping from things that i want to avoid at all cost..
coward???TOTALLY
i'm a person who cannot face a situation..or damn serious situation where my emotion and my mind become blank...
i hate that kind of feeling...the way it feels makes me feel useless...
after that, continuing my diploma...
started to feel comfortable again...
but the challenge keeps me on the edge...
personal life, family, friends...
but thanks to Allah SWT..He did not left me all by myself...
alhamdulillah my gred were not so bad...
still there is something off...
and then..send to the south....deggreeeee....
i'm out of place.. coping and learning...new friends that have special place in my heart
bring me to the world that i do not know exist..
thanx guys for showing me...

being with others really show you how they cope with their life..
i'm learning that, still learning..
avoiding such 'disastrous' part of your life will not make you grown
i know i'm such an igrorant person...
being as me is totally not cool
friends..thank you for being there for for me..good and bad times..
forgiving me things that i make mistakes...
laughing and crying is part of our 'campus' life
my family...thanx for sticking up with me...
even i'm so childish...i'm still your baby gurl...hahahha
being me...still need to grow up...and up..up...
feel free to look down...
bcuz that's remind us how much effort that we spend to achieved what we have now...

hey

u know guys???
not everything will be own your way
please stop whining...
please stop thinking that you're the only one who getting hurt
maybe he's not for you
and you're not for him..
fate will guide you to the right one...

i know i'm nobody to you
who am i to give you some advise
just to say my friend
i am a sister to you (Muslim)
it's part of life babe..
learning to get hurt...
feelings...love someone...

hey don't be sad
don't cry over nothing
don't cry over love
don't cry over loneliness
just like myself...
so lonely

smile

sunshine
not always be our friend
raining
will follow us thoroughly
people
the words will never surprise us

face the fear
smile when you're feel dissappear
dissolve from the world
everything will be alright
everything will be alright
only you can console yourself

smile when your friend left you
smile when you are staring at the world
smile when you are alone
 

trying....

right now
i'm trying to breathe...
so suffocate...
there's no air
i'm walking in a road..
full of wondering
i need something to hold on
please hold my hand

i turn left
i saw a light
so bright but it's hurting me
so pain
turn right
a forest calling me
i walk
and walk
touching the grass
so soft

even i'm alone
i know you will come
even the path is unclear
the future will unleash it
slowly
we walk and met
give me smile and happiness
and i will the whole me to you
i'm trying
still trying
to be the perfect for you
balance for you

say stranger

say stranger...
walk...
eat..
silent...
pray...
where are you exactly??

say stranger..
i only saw your shadow..
it seems like you are carrying a heavy burden...
why don't you loosen up a bit??

say stranger...
why is it hard to talk to you??
do we need to talk to you only for important things??
why can't we get to know you better...
from your back,i only saw a wall...

say stranger..
time always precious...
our relationship as a friend may not long lasting
there's always separation between human..
as our road will be different path..

say stranger..
if you wish...................